will i be ok?

since last saturday....i msg her..no reply at all...at that time i'm wondering what happen?igtkan xde kedit ke..coz i also dont have any credit left in my phone..so i wait till sunday..around 4 i think i can stand it anymore...so i called her...
guess what???..guess la..i ask u to guess..huhuhu.
well...it seems like she'll b fine this time around...hopefully she will b ok....
biasalah..bila da ok.baru boleh pergi mcm tu jekan?without saying anything..
hurmm....
will i be ok?i don't know...whether i'm ok or not.life goes on...
walaupun sakit...she's gone..i'm gone...its ok...semalam aku rasa sunyi sgt....
huhuhuhu..maybe before this aku xrasa sgt sebab kami still contact each other...
but now....xde dah....
hopefully she will get better soon...
bina la hidup baru...
me?dont worry about me...i've been like this before...
before i met her...alone....maybe now i can go where ever i wanna go...
i dont know...
this week my lecturer wanna come to visit me at this company...
my report x siap lagi..slide presentation....pergh..damn...
semalam aku byk termenung gak.....hahahaha.pelik kan?bukan nk buat kerja?termenung je kerjanya..... bukan leh buat apa pun..tah la...
bangun dlm kul 12 kot...
mandi...masak maggi...then tgk korean drama "my girl"...smpi la kol 7...aku bangun mandi..solat....nk masak xde benda kat dapu..lua lak..ada left over kerang bakar makan hari khamis hari tu..aku panaskan balik..sedap... itu je la makanan aku semalam selain maggi...
semalam tidur lambat gak.....x ngantok.i tried to sleep.tp xdpt..
buat report?hurm.lagila..malas!!!!so aku cuci baju sikit.....sidai baju.....layan movie plak semalam. "The Ugly Truth".....well.it is true..man is simple...women should watch this movie....huhuhu....ok la....its my lunch time ni..but i'm not iin a mood to eat..on saturday my friend buat birthday party tok anak die.g la..housemate die pun tegur...."u look skinny..what happen?'..huhuhu.do i look skinny?hahaha.perut besar je tgk...x kurus2 pun....well...
i think that's it for today kot..i don't know.......kalau ada mood nk tulis ke nk post benda nanti.ada la kot...salam....

GONE~~~~

There's a thousand words that I could say
To make you come home
Oh, seems so long ago you walked away
Left me alone
I remember what you said to me
You were acting so strange
and maybe I was too blind to see
That you needed a change

Was it something I said
To make you turn away?
To make you walk out and leave me cold
If I could just find a way
To make it so that you were right here
But right now..

I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I've drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains..

You're gone..
You're gone..
Baby you're gone
Girl you're gone, baby girl, you're gone..
You're gone..
You're...

I don't wanna make excuses, baby
Won't change the fact that you're gone
But if there's something that I could do
Won't you please let me know?
Time is passing so slowly now
Guess that's my life without you
and maybe I could change my every day
But baby I don't want to

So I'll just hang around
and find some things to do
To take my mind off missing you
and I know in my heart
You can't say that you don't love me too
Please say you do

Yeeaah....

I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I Drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains

You're gone..
You're gone..
You're gone
You're gone...you're gone.. you're....
Gone

Ohhh...

Oh what'll I do
If I can't be with you
Tell me where will I turn to
Baby where will I be
Now that we are apart
Am I still in your heart?
Baby why don't you see?
That I need you here with me
Oohhh...

I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I've drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains

Been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains

You're gone..
You're gone..
You're gone
You're gone
Gone
You're gone..

But the truth remains
You're....

its monday~~

hurmm.its monday....as usual...a bit lazy...a bit?yo yo la a bit...
yesterday was fun!yesterday night.tgk muka2 peminat2 man u mcm kera terkejut...
kalah ngn LIVERPOOL my favorite team!!!2-0!itupun without gerrard....torres not fit enuf to play..and carra still play like shit!!!bila la org tua tu nak berenti...die kaco game org laen la..isk3....
anyway...i'm still like this....blur...
report da nk kena hantar this week...duit dah xde..huhuhuhu.....
adoi.harap la ada sikit tuk isi minyak....malam ni mcm kena g kl jap je.my dad pesans uh beli barang....esok die nk dtg.hurmm...mesin basuh rumah xelok2 lagi smpi sekarang....
argh....bila nak habis belajar..nk g aussie...sape nak ikut?

kelmarin...

well,...its october 21st....
sleepy in my office...got lot of work to do...but..kinda dizzy..last night kena hujan on my way back to my home...lebat giler!!!stuck at highway and later on kat pam minyak....
aku dah buat mcm tmpat apa dah kat situ...siap bukak kasut bukak stoking lagi..perah2 lagi..idai kat motor...hurmm....dah la sejuk..lapaar lak tu..niat nak g usha tmpt makan..my friend told me ada tmppat makan best area pandan indah..i was from shah alam..jumpa naha nak amik contoh report..
alih2..dalm perjalanan tu lebat giler hujan....dah sejam lebih gak tunggu kat stesen minyak tu....maa aku nampak maggi je...sejuk2 makan maggi bestnya.....ssssllluuurrrrpppp....
aku pakai balik kelengkapan diri tuk jadi gaban....
terus aku redah hujan..hujan lebat xyah ckp la..sejuk ny alagi..tp sebabkan maggi..aku sanggup...
lapar beb...
smpi rumah..bukan terus mandi..siap basuh baju la....rendam baju nk basuh esok nya la...owh ye..semalam aku ada beli jake kat bundle...kaler pink..nice!!!i like...huhuhu...
ok2..sambung balik....dah setel semua bukan terus g mandi?layan tv dulul..mana magginya ni?adeh2..aku g mandi air panas.....bestnya.....after mandi...masak magi...sedap!!!lepas makan plan nk buat report..kononnya....mata dah layu.penat sgt...badan lesu je rasa...
dh la handphone xboleh nk on.kena hujan..mcm banjir gak la poket sluar jeans aku....
handphone dah bukak kuar kan bateri....aku masuk bilik tidor!report?burn....
adeh3..bila la nk buat report ni...hurmm....
bangun pagi tadi lak..kepala berat..ras nk demam...tp dh byk kali gak mc kat ofis ni..risau la plak..ku gagahkan jugak g ofis...
sebab tu ngntok ni kot..badan n kepala berat...pening2 lalat...
hati???pening gak.... :(

If I die Tonight......

If I die tonight
What would I do
On my last day
I know I'd wake early
In the morn' for crack
Of dawn's last pray
Then prolly go for breakfast
Like I used to do
Fried kuey teow FAM
And roti canai at Raju's
With my boo
And friends from way back
Neighborhood homies
Extended fam
They only know me
As that same cat
With that shaved head
Rocking Cross Colors
Sneaks to school
Writin' rhymes at the back of class
Playing tricks on fools
Then I'd come back to the crib
Tidy up a bit
Y'all know my room's messy
Though classy
Start arrange my ish
Line up my shoes one by one
Start with Jordans
And end with them Air Force Ones
Put a Post-it on the tongue
Of each one
With the name of each dun
I think I know my homies
And who would want which one
Get on the phone
And holla' at everybody
It's nearly noon
Gots to have lunch
With the family
Then spend the last day
I don't know
Try do a million other things
Hoping somehow
Time will slow
I guess what
I'm trying to say is
Take everyday
Like it was your last
Work towards your dreams
Before you pass
And have a blast
While you at it
'Cause we don't know
When we go go
So make the best of it
Just keep it real to yourself
And to all people
If y'all lost somebody before
Remember there'll be a sequel


Chorus (2x)
If I die tonight
You know it'll be alright
Just smile for me
Reminisce the fond memories


Verse 2
Well if I die tonight
I wonder
Where I'll be tomorrow
Nobody cry please
Push away the sorrow
'Cause I ain't been
The best of men
The best of friends
The best of mom
And daddy's last son
The best of anything
Tell Joe here's a last one
If I die tonight
Would I be forgiven
By all the people
I been slackin' with
When I was livin'?
Those who I hurt their hearts
Took advantage of
And even lied to
Hug you one last time
For forgiveness
Yeah I would like to
If I die tonight
Would you feel the loss?
Tomorrow would you dial
My number by accident
Then suddenly... pause?
If I die tonight
I wonder who would get
To keep my caps and shoes
Jerseys, even my little
Stuffed crocodile Coco too
Get my cell phone
Message everyone from A to Z
Tell 'em this ain't Malique
He passed away last night
And pray he rest in peace
If I die tonight
Would you think of my room
When you see blue
Wanted to clean it up this morning
But then I never knew
If I die tonight
What would happen to Tim
How long would it take
Before she kissed another man?...
God damn...
At fast food joints
Would she still order
The same combo meal for two?
Things I wish I knew...


Chorus (2X)
If I die tonight
You know it'll be alright
Just smile for me
Reminisce the fond memories


Verse 3
A cute lil' thing
To many eyes
To me you were simply
A beautiful thing
I tell no lies
We went from
Mere invisible friends
To pals real tight
Rendezvous up on the net
To chitty chat all night
I used to pick you up
Until you got your own ride
A slammin' two door whip
A grey 36-72
Lookin' all slick
Remember when I asked why this
You said because it's real fast
So you can rush
To see your boy after class
The last time
We met was '01 September
You left feelin' upset over... something
I can't remember...
I never apologized
Till January 10th 2003
When I heard you passed away
When I was deep in my sleep
Your loss taught me
Not to take my friends for granted
Misunderstandings
Gotta slam it quick
Death you never plan it
You're sorely missed down here Wawyn
Rest in peace
This too shall pass
But our true friendship will never cease...
Love...


Chorus (till end)
If I die tonight
You know it'll be alright
Just smile for me
Reminisce the fond memories

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