It's just not my day

hurm..since what?yesterday???

i felt different a bit. and i know..

my bad day will come..buti never thought it will come this soon...

gosh!

and its today...damn!

why must it happen today?where it suppose to be a happy day for me as for my brother getting a job...my friends get an interview...

so i should be happy then....

but.im not..

during work??gosh..i'm just working to fill my pocket today...

so lazy..usually i am one of the most spirited guy in the store..but today its just so mellow...

i was like.why are u like this ben????

to think again

its just not my day..

even after work....

still,..i am nt that good..its ok a bit..

because i can surf the internet when i'm home..

but then....still theres nothing that makes me want to go..

*sigh....

when i got home..

i got this weird news

and it hit me straight to my heart!!!

i was down again...;)

wa..great la helmy u...

down down down....

and now???

i am feeling bad..

100 %

with everything..

my feeling.my mind.

my life.my future...

so...hopefully eveything will be fine soon!

argh